Tag Archives: regret

Remembrance

May 29, 2020Poemsbeloved, Faiz Ahmed Faiz, fragrance, heartache, higher ground, jasmine, loneliness, love, memory, Mirage, O love of my life, parting, poem, poetry, regret, Remembrance, romantic, rose, Satori Publishing, separation, smouldering, timeless, translation, union, universal, Urdu to English, wildernesssatoripublishing2013

O love of my life, in the wilderness of loneliness, shimmer
The shadows of your voice, the mirage of your lips
In the wilderness of loneliness, under the ashen dust
The jasmine and rose of your bosom are laid bare

Somewhere nearby arises the warmth of your breath
Smouldering in its own fragrance dimly, dimly
Faraway, beyond the horizon, glistening drop by drop
The dew of your beloved image is falling

O love of my life, this time with how much affection
Your memory placed its hand on the cheeks of my heart
The suspicion here, even though this is the morning of separation
The day of parting is over, the night of union has arrived.

( my translation of a poem by Faiz Ahmed Faiz )

You Don’t Care

May 25, 2020Poemsaffair, beware, care, deleted, facing facts, grief, heart, heartache, love, personal, poem, poetry, prayer, regret, Satori Publishing, search, unrequited, You Don't Caresatoripublishing2013

No matter how hard I stare
I can’t see nothing nowhere
If only, if only you would care

I warn my heart to beware
But it keeps going back there
Hoping one day you might care

I search low, high, far and near
I search here, there, everywhere
I pray, but you still don’t care

I hoped you had some love to spare
The chambers of your heart are bare
I begged, but you still won’t care

I can’t figure out this affair
No god can answer my prayer
Nothing I can do to make you care

Now you act as if I’m not there
You have deleted the way we were
I know, I know you just don’t care.

Empty Sky

May 9, 2020Poemsbeautiful soul, blank canvas, children, clouds, dreams, Empty Sky, faith, family, food for thought, gifts, grief, heartache, higher ground, masterpiece, moon, original, personal, poem, poetry, prayer, rainbow, regret, Satori Publishing, sorrow, spirit, stars, sun, timeless, truth, universal, wondroussatoripublishing2013

What can I leave you?
Now that you don’t want me to stay
What can I give you?
Something that you won’t throw away
Now that you don’t want me or my love
Nothing left, I point to the sky above

Use the empty sky as a blank canvas
I know you can paint a masterpiece
I have faith in your gifts, I confess
One day we will both find peace
I give you more than just an empty sky
One thing to remember each other by

Paint fluffy white clouds floating in blue
Wave your hand to set off a gentle breeze
Paint birds on the wing, singing in praise of you
Sunshine yellow, the whole rainbow, pretty please
Hang the moon and stars where you will
My god, it is your empty sky to fill

I will raise my hands high to touch
The caress of your breeze, your sun on my face
Raise my hands when I miss you too much
Bless your moon glowing on my dark space
I gave you an empty sky pole to pole
You have filled it with your beautiful soul

Now that I am on the other side of the world
I too will stand under that same sky
Whenever I think of my beautiful, baby girl
Every day and night, to remember you by
I cannot look into your wonderful eyes
But I can look up at your wondrous sky.

Verse ( Last Night )

April 3, 2020Poemsbreeze, desert, Faiz Ahmed Faiz, food for thought, grief, heart, heartache, Last Night, love, memory, poem, poetry, regret, Satori Publishing, spring, timeless, translation, universal, Urdu to English, Verse, Verse ( Last Night ), wildernesssatoripublishing2013

Last night your lost memory stole into my heart
Like the Spring, stealthily, creeps into a wilderness
Like the dawn breeze, softly, tiptoes across a desert
Like the relief, without cause, visits one in sickness.

( my translation of a poem by Faiz Ahmed Faiz ).

Silence

April 1, 2020Poemsbutcher knife, children, curse, emotions, expressed, facing facts, family, food for thought, lifestyle, memory, original, personal, poem, poetry, regret, repressed, Satori Publishing, Silence, spirit, the basics, thoughts, timeless, truth, universalsatoripublishing2013

Silence has been the biggest curse of my life
Thoughts not given voice, constantly repressed
Emotions never shown, or simply expressed
Silence cuts deeper than any butcher knife.

I Try Not To

December 25, 2019Poemsash, children, darkest thought, facing facts, family, food for thought, grief, hurt, I Try Not To, living dead, memory, original, pain, personal, poem, poetry, prayer, regret, Satori Publishing, the basics, think of you, timeless, truth, universalsatoripublishing2013

I try not to think of you
It hurts too much, the pain too hard to bear
I try not to think of you
In my heart I know, you do not care

The thought I cannot shake off
My weakness is the mistake that will cost
I am no longer worthy of your love
Pay the price, all is lost, all is lost

In the ash still are warm memories of you
I am living dead without you
My heart signals my mind to think of you
I try not to.

Deathbed

August 5, 2019Poemschildren, Deathbed, facing facts, family, fathers and sons, food for thought, legacy, memory, original, personal, poem, poetry, prayer, regret, Satori Publishing, sorrow, spirit, timeless, too late, universalsatoripublishing2013

He, your father,
said, ‘Ghulam Qadir’ …

You, my father,
will say, ‘Zafar …’

A legacy of ‘hate’
The wait … and … too late.

Repeating Itself

August 5, 2019Poemschildren, disease, facing facts, family, food for thought, grief, heartache, Indifference, memory, original, personal, poem, poetry, regret, Repeating Itself, Satori Publishing, Silence, spirit, the basics, timeless, universalsatoripublishing2013

‘Please don’t give me your disease – Silence
And your poison – Indifference’ …
Now I hand back what you gave
Take them with you to the grave.

Detached Retina

August 2, 2019Poemschildren, cruel, cut, Detached Retina, dramatic, eye, facing facts, family, food for thought, fragile, love, memory, nerve, passion, personal, poem, poetry, regret, Satori Publishing, sensitive, severed, sight, survive, timeless, uniiversalsatoripublishing2013

Out of sight is not out of mind
But you have to be cruel to be kind
Nurse the heartache if you want to survive
Put yourself first in order to stay alive
When common ground cannot be found
Travel your own path, stay safe and sound
When basic communication has broken down
Pack your heart to the other side of town
Cut the cord and leave them behind
Step to one side and you will find
You have to be cruel to be kind
But out of sight is not out of mind.

Closure

June 19, 2019Poemsbrash, Closure, cutting edge, dramatic, family, food for thought, memory, original, personal, poetry, regret, Satori Publishingsatoripublishing2013

The neglected dead flowers, the broken vase
The last argument, the last words said to my wife
“Am I supposed to stick my head up your arse
And walk behind you for the rest of my life…?”

Bye Bye

June 19, 2019PoemsBye-Bye, departure, different directions, facing facts, family, farewell, food for thought, Inspiration, love, original, parting of the ways, personal, poetry, regret, Satori Publishing, the basics, timeless, universalsatoripublishing2013

You are no longer you, and I am no longer I
The you and I of old gone by the by
Face the fact even if it makes us cry
Nothing will change no matter how we try
End it now or continue living a lie
The truth so plain we cannot deny
You are no longer you, and I am no longer I
The you and I of old gone by the by.

Perspective

June 15, 2019Poemsfacing facts, family, food for thought, love, memory, personal, Perspective, poetry, regret, Satori Publishing, timeless, universalsatoripublishing2013

A few feet away
We were so far apart
Now many miles away
You are closer to my heart.